Too much of a good thing

Friday, June 13, 2008

Of He's and She's


It’s funny how this heartbreak thing works!
The very thing that did somersaults in her tummy every time He spoke to her, now lay spent inside her. She felt bad for herself. For not having that proverbial easy charm. For not believing in herself. For always being so insecure. For loving him unconditionally.

There was nobody she could talk to. Nothing they might say could make a difference.
He was her personal 911. He was whom she opened up to. And yet, he was the one she was scared of. She was possessive, and understandably so. Everybody seemed better than her. She feared he would look for greener pastures, after all!

Hold your breath, her fears did come true. Sometimes, knowing what will happen does not prepare you any better for it. He did go. She thought they had traded hearts. She wasn’t prepared for make-shift.

At that point, she hated the world. She despised her parents for making the pitiful being that was her. Cursed God. Lost faith in him. Felt as helpless as hopeless. Gave up on her responsibilities. He had done a good job turning her into a woebegone, broken soul. She had no more tears to cry, so she hurt herself. She substituted it with blood because something had to flow! She did not want to be this vulnerable. She tried sleeping it off, but it also bailed out on her.

And then it came. Exploded. Hate like she never had known. She hated him. And that gave her comfort. Knowing that somewhere deep, really deep, it would sting him to know she loathed him. And that assuaged her. She picked herself up, employed pretense and went about her life.


She loved him.


P.S. The story is completely fictional. The guy would have his rear end burnt if the 'she' in question was meant to resemble me. ;)

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posted by Nayantara at 10:22 PM

20 Comments:

*is speechless*

Go you!!

June 13, 2008 at 10:49 PM  

Scary

June 14, 2008 at 2:53 AM  

i guess more people than not feel the same way. :) nice blog.

June 14, 2008 at 11:11 AM  

it happens to everyone...

June 14, 2008 at 2:05 PM  

wow. dark! neat!!! loved it!!!!!

June 14, 2008 at 6:03 PM  

This is really well written NT...
The state of knowin what will happen is a heartbrk bfor the real one...
Gr8 write there...:)

And btw loved the lable title..Life gyaan..mast hai :D

June 15, 2008 at 1:44 PM  

it was super fictional.. (I am dumbstruck though)

I liked the flow.. I prefer this not to happen to any of my closedones..

amen..
Tc.
Omi

June 16, 2008 at 3:24 PM  

Loved all of it... my fav is the P.S and "Sometimes, knowing what will happen does not prepare you any better for it"

June 18, 2008 at 7:55 PM  

I'm quite pissed about the P.S. :D
Would you like to have some giving away? :P

June 19, 2008 at 6:06 PM  

well written...just a small(huge) price to pay for falling in love.

June 19, 2008 at 11:51 PM  

hmm, touchy
nice template, btw

June 24, 2008 at 9:21 PM  

very nice man!

concise but makes an impact. loved "her personal 911" and "something had to flow" among other things. keep writing!

June 27, 2008 at 4:39 PM  

ROTFL @ your P.S.
Kick ass attitude buhbee! LOL!

June 29, 2008 at 7:46 AM  

im speechless.........

August 19, 2008 at 11:08 PM  

* sniff *

November 23, 2008 at 4:44 PM  

I know 47,784 girls like that

January 24, 2009 at 12:57 AM  

hey......i cannt stop laughing.... your"LIFE Gyan" is really gud....i aint laughinh at that....but....becoz of some thoughts...i wont reveal them...for i dont want my "rear end" to be burnt ;)

January 26, 2009 at 10:43 PM  

Er I don't know what you have in mind, but rest assured, it's fiction. And even if it's "inspired", it's nobody you know..

January 26, 2009 at 11:09 PM  

Sometimes, knowing what will happen does not prepare you any better for it....
911...
hmmmmm...

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